I just read my last post. It wasn't written so well. I'll try and make my next one better. =)

Little Red Love Re-call

Something I have feared for quite sometime has just come along and hit me like a freight train.

I have been trying hard not to acknowledge the fact that facebook gives us a license to be narcissistic, egotistical and self absorbed; this is a license that I shamelessly abuse. Yet I don’t know how to stop and I don’t know if it’s wrong.

This topic was evoked this evening between myself, and someone who can remain nameless. We somehow got on the topic of people who update their statuses’ a lot. He said he had a very low opinion of these people as well as bloggers, who he believed to be 'contrived, narcissistic and delusional,' at this point I revealed to him that I in fact had a blog, at this, I do not think he was surprised.

Now, this is someone who’s opinion I respect greatly. I always try to consider their point of view because I truly trust their judgment and intelligence. Even so, I was prepared to fight, not in an aggressive way; I was just intrigued by their strong views on the subject.

So we talked it out. He said that people, who update their statuses’ several times a day aka me, are people who are shamelessly after attention and approval. Sure, the attention thing I can admit too. I’m not starved for attention or anything like that, but I admit that its nice to be reminded that you’re mildly entertaining to people. Also, its nice to share your thoughts, feelings and happenings with your friends, families and your 300 random adds. The approval thing I do not agree with, but hey, maybe I’m wrong.

Maybe I’m wrong about this whole thing, maybe I am just trying to come up with excuses to abuse facebook. I mean I did write a blog post about the Little Red Love, but at least I admitted to it. I don’t pretend that I’m not addicted to it, but maybe that’s just a cop out too…

It’s kind of like this thing my friend Shootingstar and I talk about. We talk about how when we’re with an ‘easy’ crowed we crack really lame, easy jokes that we know will get laughs just for a) the pure satisfaction and b) because like I said, its easy. We talk about how after you do it, you just feel dirty, like you’ve whored yourself out to a cheap crowed; it really is almost sickening. I have to say, even though I admittedly do this, I also use humor as a defense mechanism, it’s a great ice-breaker and works like a charm, which isn’t as disgraceful as the cheap jokes.

So maybe facebook is the same? I don’t really know where to go from here. I do update my status a lot, I do seem to be tagged in photos a lot, and I have no plans to send these things to the grave. Though by saying this I am not claiming to be a narcissist, sure I probably am a little bit, but no more than anyone else on facebook. I am open about the fact that I am pretty neurotic and worry that I’m a completely ridiculous human being, but there isn’t much I can do about that. I try not to take it all that seriously. I try to think that most of the things I say or do on facebook are totally in jest, something I sincerely hope my facebook friends know.

One thing I can say about being an active facebook user is that I love facebook! I spend a lot of time on facebook and its not purely for my own personal indulgence; I genuinely enjoy reading everyone else’s updates and looking at their photos and revelling in any other ode that may arise in the land of facebook.

P.S. I didn't really know how to process the notion that bloggers were dubbed as being 'contrived, narcissistic and delusional,' so naturally I put that under my 'about me' section on facebook.